Let's Put It This way...

Let's put it this way

Ok

Let's not....

But.....

Ok

Waste

Trying to reconcile

The past and

Worrying about 

Tomorrow

Is time wasted

Not borrowed

Trying to please

Everybody else

Leaves one

Dissatisfied

Try first pleasing

Yourself

Spending time on

People who don't

Spend their time on you

Is a waste of time 

And energy

Don't Take Me

Don't take me

Away from here

Don't take me

Away

Don't take me

For granted

Don't take me

For a fool

Don't take me

For a ride

Don't rob me 

Of my pride

 Don't take me

To the curb

Don't rake me

Over coals

Don't take me

To the cleaners

Don't take me

Out for lunch

Father's Day

Father's Day

My dad's gone away

And I'm so far away

From my girls.

I spent more time with my girls

Than my dad did with me

Every day was Father's day

Those days are gone

I am thankful for what 

I still get.

Caffeine

Waking up too soon

Staying up real late

Shoulda slept til noon

But i got up before eight

Caffeine honey where you been?

Caffeine she don't let me get to dream.

Playing in the nightclubs 

Working in the day

Home too late for backrubs

Or to cash my pay

Caffeine honey where you been?

Caffeine she don't let me get to dream.

I might get it from a chocolate bar

Or from a coffee cup

Til i get it can't go far

I need a pick me up 

 Caffeine honey where you been?

Caffeine she don't let me get to dream.

There has to be Room

There has to be room for you

You're meant "to be", not "to do"

Not a place in the margin, 

Or a seat by the wall.

A place that shouts out  " Me too!"

There has to be room for us

We're meant to soar and be free

Not to crawl or to beg

But to stand on four legs

Two legs for you, two for me

There has to be room for the others

Even though you might have your "druthers" 

Not too much at a time

One or two would be fine

And sometimes your plans can be "other"

Tongue Haiku

Tongue that penetrates 

Giving back to me what I

So freely give you

Disconnect

My body is not co-operating

Every part of me 

that is meant for you

Aches and throbs

Telling me to slow down

Look after myself

Two days of disconnect

I am not Superman

I am a poor patient.

I'll be back! 

Full Moon Obscured

Full moon obscured

But I don't care

I know you cast 

your eyes up there

Full moon occurred

I know she's there

You have to cast 

Your faith up there

Tomorrow when 

The sky is clear

That big old moon

Will help me steer

My heart from haze

So  we can gaze

Four eyes together

...No more distance

...No more weather

Emancipation

Calling my emancipation a mid-life crisis
Is applying blame where none is needed,
None is wanted, none is accepted

Can it be, that I just want to be free?
How irrational is that?
To say "no" when "no" is needed
To take back my time, take back my space
To listen to my heart,
To finally be heeded.

I have allowed others to walk
Where I should have been standing
I have allowed others to reap
The benefits of my labours
I have allowed myself to accept
Crumbs from my own cornucopia

Awakening from a coma
Is a miracle
Revel in the light

April 6, 2013

About

I am not about

Expectations

That result in 

Disappointment

I am all about 

Fulfillment

Where fear of

disappointment 

Disappears

Lunatic

Have you ever
Made a casual remark
That cut someone deeply?

I just did! I regret it.
She says it's no big deal,
But it is. It surely is
It sorely is. It always is.

Image and self loathing
Are subjects i know
Too well. Having lived
My own private hell

I know so many words
That can uplift
And yet I joked and teased
Unwanted gift

tender soul she shares with me
So quietly and tenderly
I treated her so thoughtlessly
Not the man I want to be

The sorry and the sorrow
Will both be gone tomorrow

Touch

Touch

To be touched 

Touché

Moved

Stirred

Affected

Unbalanced

Your touch

on my skin

does all this.

Your healing 

gentle touch 

remains with me 

and I am thankful 

and serene.

The Big Dipper

The Big Dipper

Was directly aligned 

Over the driveway

Tonight

Pouring stardust on my 

Buoyant boyhood soul.

I wanted to share 

What I saw with you

I wanted to dance

To breathe the same

Fresh air as you

Yes

I suppose that

Her proposal

Means she knows

I'm at her disposal

Plans and dreams

And mindful scenes

Of comfort and ease

Of aiming to please

Unselfish, loyal

Benevolent concern

For the good of another

We have that.

Yes, I answered, 

Yes, yes, yes.

The Renegade Bee Finds A Garden

a rose arose and 
filled my nose 
a scent
of sweet ambrosia

wallflower no more
Norah I adore
each day more and more
esteem to restore
my garland of roses
lilies and posies
two lips for sure
nourishment pure

lucky to be your honey bee
to pollenate, and gratiate,
stay up late and satiate

Looking Forward

Looking forward
Looking back
Ever onward or
Off the track

Biding time
I marinate
Fermenting wine
To an altered state

For the moment,
Solo bliss
In my dreams
Your sweet, wet kiss.

Your body and mine
Should intertwine
When ever ready
When it's the time

No use to press 
No need to force
Ask "Who's the water?"
Ask "Who's the horse?"

Led to each other
No need to think
We share a thirst
It's time to drink.

Thrown Away

Thrown away,
Left on the curb
You went away, said
"Do not disturb"

You Used "Fuck " as a noun
And not as  a verb
Not a very loving word
Nor the worst I've ever heard

Now you say you want me back
With words that soothe
That don't attack
You wish to prove
You've turned a leaf
You want my trust, want my belief
That you won't stab me in the back

But now I've turned my back on you
I've had enough, i've said we're through
How does it feel left on the curb
Reading my sign "do not disturb" 
The first time you've ever heard
It back at you word for word

Missed

I missed talking
To Norah tonight
Her smile, her giggle
Her words, her light

I missed her lips,
Watching her move, and 
Her watching me watch
Her every move

I missed holding her tight
Missed kissing her neck
Missed Rubbing her right
But what the heck

Comforting to know
That I'm missed too
I shrug, you shrug
What are we to do?

I'd rather miss you than not and 
be missed and not forgotten
They say "absence makes the heart grow fonder"
That may be true, but I just want her.

I missed talking 
To Norah tonight.

Fool

I may be a fool
To want you so
But I'd be a bigger fool
To let you go

To find that elusive
Pot of gold
At the end of a rainbow
Before we're too old

To be that conclusive
To be this sure
It's so clear to me
It must be pure

Truth and beauty
My life's pursuit
From the root to the trunk 
To the branch to the fruit

Sharing Sharon

 
Harsh words,
Tears,
Confusion

Fence rail,
Fears,
Division

Unfair,
Unclear,
Decision

Right, wrong
Love song
Invasion

Unsure
Pressure
Invitation

I Won't quit!
We fit!
Face it!
Solution!

I'd Stop, Cold

If I were to have to stop
seeing you, I'd stop. Cold.
Not because I didn't love you,
but because I did.

I wouldn't want to prevent
you from seeing 
and loving another
One hundred percent

To keep some part of me
back thinking what might
have been, what may be again
An illusion, a delusion
A co-dependent collusion 

Investing in a past dance
is not giving the present
or the future romance
A fighting chance.

Sad and Lonely

Sad and lonely in a
cold house
I'm not with anybody
Am I with nobody?
Am I a nobody?
The somebody I want 
To be my one body

I'm with me at least
Only me, sans beast
My heart is beating
To say the least

Hi I. I miss you already. 
Don't mind me too much... 
I am a worry wort 
and a tad negative (ha!) 
when tired and /or stressed. 
The evening was wonderful. 
I look forward to the difficulties 
being well behind us 
so that we can enjoy 
each other's company 
without distraction. 
I feel so loved by you: 
safe and comforted in your arms, 
cherished by the intensity of your gaze. 
You are a very special man. 
Sleep peacefully tonight 
and trust that you are loved too. 

Hard To Believe

Hard to believe
this bond so tight
Hard to believe
that you don't
think it's right
Hard to believe
that you're always right.

Sometimes
It's hard for me
to admit
what's on my mind.
I find myself wanting 
to hide my fears
to flinch away from the blow
I think is coming.
Wishing to mold you into
someone you are not
I'm learning that love 
means accepting
All of who you've got.

Diversion, evasion
Inversion, invasion
Diffusion, Solution

Beauty

I  know  what  I see

This is not just flattery
But Who you are to me
Not who I want you to be
But who you are truly
Is the epitome
Of beauty, beauty, beauty
Set us free

Nothing Lasts Forever

No such thing as never
Nothing lasts forever
Things that sound so clever
But never ever 
mean a thing
In the present

Today is all we have
But today 
might be a dream
A dream that never 
lasts forever