Trying times

Trying times
Times trying

Trying not to make
A temporal mistake

Trying to make up
For lost time

Time to try to
Find the time

Time trials

Time apart
Aching heart

Not forever,
My here and now
Is lacking
Somehow

Fairly Silly

Yes, I am fairly silly.

It gets me through hard times.

I am unaware as to how to be

different from who I am.

I don't know what drama

you are referring to, but

"not sticking around"

is not an option for me.

I am thankful to love you

and be loved by you.

At the same time

I am angry at all of the men

who did not see beyond their

petty little egos

at the gift you are to the planet.

Everyone who left you

was unworthy of

what you have and

who you are.

They are fools.

The Missing Bit

There is the missing bit.
If you hate something I love,
You trust your hatred 
more than my love.

Ignore the parts of your life you hate
Until you can love them.

Olive Branch

An olive branch
Is a trojan horse
The hidden truth
Of a tough divorce

Try to be nice
Try to reason
Bad advice
In open season

Together Forever

She does
She does
She does
For me
And
I do
I do
I do
For her
And we
Both
Know
Know
Know
That
One day
Some day
Soon day
We'll be
Well be
Well be
We'll be
Tethered
Together
Forever

Beyond Words

I'd get more
Sleep when
I sleep alone
If we didn't
Hang out
On the phone

Words

But I miss you so
Don't want to
Let you go

Words

It's a better rest
Sleeping in your nest
Sweeping hands
And quiet staring

My body melts
Into your form
Sharin the heat
Keepin us warm

You reach for me
I reach for you
Always there
Always true

Beyond words

Rich Ritual

She's a
Funny little
Lady with
Funny little
Habits

Rich in
Rituals

Like how
She folds
A tee shirt
Slices a
Pizza
Or tucks
In a sheet

Hospital
corners

Neat and tidy
Keeps you
Sane

Saving for a
Snack
Beverage
Comfort

Choc
-O-
Late

She has
Become
My rich
Ritual
How I
Love her so

If

If
The worst
Thing
About
Loving me
Is
Knowing
I'll be leaving

Then

The best
Thing
About
Loving me
Must be
knowing
And believing

Dating Fatigue

I got Dating fatigue
People outa my league
Three times a day
I've been peeled down to the core

Her ad  was twenty years younger
And two thousand packs before
She was twitching while we talked
My eye was on the door

There were Some down right exotic
And Others plain neurotic
Some more came off erotic
But I've been through that before


Some just wanta text me
Some just wanta sex me
This window shopping wrecks me
I can't take it any more

I want to read read a hefty book
I want to eat what I can cook
So tired of being mr. Look
At the digital singles store

Ok Cupid whatcha got
Plenty of fish
Look at what I  caught
She's gentle, smart and kinda hot
Don't need a profile any more

Musical Houses

Trying not
To get lost in
the chaos of
musical houses and
angry spouses.

Been there, Done That

You say you've been there, done that
But really, where have you been?
You've got a drawer full of t-shirts
But were you ever there at all?

You say you've heard this song before
But what did you hear?
You've got a mouth full of words
Was there any song at all?

You say you've ordered this before
But What did you taste?
What do you remember
Eating in a hurry, what a waste

You tell me you were taught it
But I don't think it was learned
Or maybe you forgot it
'Cause you keep on getting burned

You've seen it all, you've done it all
You've got the pictures on the wall
Europe at a glance
You've seen it all, you've done it all
You've got the pictures on the wall
But you forgot to dance

Thought you heard but were you listening?
thought you saw but you weren't there
You ate, you chewed, you swallowed
Thought you led, but really followed
I see through you cause you're hollow
You can stuff your souvenirs

Walking dead walking dead
Is there anything at all inside your head?
Walking dead, walking dead
Think you lead, but too easily led.

Demons Away

Demons away
Don't Interfere
Get out of the way
We don't need you here

Demons away
Casting your doubt
Within and  without
Obscuring what's clear
Out out ... out out

Demons away
We've bridges to burn
And dragons to slay
We don't need your fear
Go away... go away

Demons away
Let me demonstrate
that the monsters are fake
You might think they're real
But they're not ...they're not

Demons away
To never resurface
They just  interfere
They serve no real purpose

Demons away

There Is No "plan B "

There is no "plan B"
There never was
I am where I want to be
I'll be here tomorrow

I don't go half way
I don't hold back
What you see is
What you get

It's all "plan A" on
My planet

Bruised

Bruised feelings
all too much for me
Trying to cope
To be who
I want  to be

Where is she?

Overwhelmed
By so much duty
It makes me
Want to hide

Where is she?

It's in my voice
It's in my face
Left alone
So  much to face

Where is she?

She is my princess
All I have ever wanted
I  chose her and
She chose me

Where is she?

Trying times

Trying times
Times trying

Trying not to make
A temporal mistake

Trying to make up
For lost time

Time to try to
Find the time

Time trials

Time apart
Aching heart

Not forever,
My here and now
Is lacking
Somehow

Disambiguation

Disambiguation

My bed is not inviting
The riot in my head
Is too inciting
Instead of sleep
I'm furiously writing

The slab of dread
of nails 
i've tossed and turned
I've lost and learned
Been crossed and burned

Now just an hour
From alarming
All thoughts
Amplified to
Screeching
Feedback heights

No rest for the wicked
Know best where to stick it
No rest for the weary
My eyes sore and bleary

My spirit is infected,
Etched, and scarred
I never expected
Release to be so hard

And now i share
My hopes and fears
Laid bare
My biggest fear
There's nothing there
My biggest fear
There's nothing here
Nothing to fear
Nothing to wear

Dawn is breaking
Everything is aching
Nothing is making
Sense

Putting on the face
Of brave to face
The transitory
Bleakness
This transitory
Weakness
Undetected
Unexpected
Undirected

Feets don't fail me now

Above All Imaginings

you give
And
You live
And
you live

And
Your life
Takes
A shape

If you're lucky

A balance

So lucky to
Have talents

My Mayan
Rebirth
Like the
dawning
Of earth

The lava
of love
Erupting
Eroding
and
Sculpting

Powerful
Above
All
Imaginings

Another Lonely Night

Another lonely night
In beds apart
In worlds apart
You're out of sight
But in my heart

The chores on chores
Keep things at bay
Leave things to say
To love some more
Another day

I try to rest
In cold cold sheets
Without your heat
Your heaving breast
In your cold bed

By dawn so cozy
Curled up womb
Crisp out there
A naked room

Decades Trying

Decades
trying
Bled
the passion
Out of me

Sucked away
The fire

The Status Quo
of goals unmet
of oaths forgotten,
souls ignored
What did you expect

What's yours Is yours
What's mine  was yours
But now
What's mine is mine

My life
My passion
My fire
My goals
My soul's
Set free,

Beyond The Blue Horizon

Sweet wet kisses last so long
Warmer hugs, so close, so strong
She already misses me
Before I'm gone
And I miss her too as I disappear
Beyond the blue horizon

One day our hours will be ours
We will converge And merge
Beyond the stars
Where nothing else matters
And no one else exists
Beyond The blue Horizon

Bruised Lips

Bruised lips 

that taste

And tingle 

You make me

Want to sing

Gone before dawn

But soon To return

Back to the arms 

Where I belong

Return Of The King

The king returns

Crusades are won

Dragons slain

Back number one

With one eye open

Expecting more 

Not trusting peace

Expecting war

Too, too much

This little plot

On which we planned

On which we fought.

Rebuild, repair

Resolve prepare

Reclaim, retake

Redeem mistake

Remember the dead

The life and lives

The blood that was shed

The twisting knives

Digging out and digging in

I stand erect

Begin again

For all my wandering

Scars and prizes

No more wondering

No more crisis

It's not a homecoming

No fanfare please

There is no triumph

No laurel leaves

Time to live

Time to breathe

Time to love

Time to believe.

Fear Based Living

Fear based livingmakes no sense

To me

I was afraid.

I ventured.

Nothing bad 

happened.

Bad and good stuff 

happens

Daily

Anyways

It doesn't 

need me

To invent it

Predict it

Dread it

It's never

As bad 

or as good

as I imagined

I am free

I am breathing

I am loved

I am not afraid

Walking Dead

You say you've been there, done that

But really, where have you been?

You've got a drawer full of t-shirts

But were you ever there at all?

You say you've heard this song before

But what did you hear?

Was there any song at all?

You say you've ordered this before

But What did you taste?

Eating in a hurry, what a waste

You tell me you were taught it

But I don't think it was learned

Or maybe you forgot it

'Cause you keep on getting burned

You've seen it all, you've done it all

You've got the pictures on the wall

Europe at a glance

You've seen it all, you've done it all

You've got the pictures on the wall

But you forgot to dance

Thought you heard but were you listening?

thought you saw but you weren't there

You ate, you chewed, you swallowed

Thought you led, but really followed

I see through you cause you're hollow

You can stuff your souvenirs

Walking dead walking dead

Is there anything at all inside your head?

Walking dead, walking dead

Think you lead, but too easily led.

I Woke Up Hard

I woke up hard

Been wrestling with the world

In my dreams

Caught  between 

What is and what it seems

Things coming apart

At the seams

I woke up hard

Been shouting out

At shadows in my sleep

 Been Scratching, never 

Penetrate too deep

The cost of things that matter

Isn't cheap

Go back to sleep sleep sleep

You're safe and sound

Go back to sleep. Sleep sleep

You stood your ground

Go back to sleep, sleep, sleep

Get lost, get found

I woke up hard

With everything i owned

Stacked in the yard

Been trying to win,

It wasn't in the cards 

It's not my life

That i can not afford

I woke up hard

A miracle that I woke up at all

When sleep eludes

It's far too easy not to fall

When things get blurred

It's difficult to call

Go back to sleep sleep sleep

You're safe and sound

Go back to sleep. Sleep sleep

You stood your ground

Go back to sleep, sleep, sleep

Get lost, get found

Woke up alone

Too early and too late for me to phone

Too late for things to 

Ever be Patched or sewn

Forever to be guessed

But never known

Go back to sleep sleep sleep

You're safe and sound

Go back to sleep. Sleep sleep

You stood your ground

Go back to sleep, sleep, sleep

Get lost, get found